Implantation or doom?

I genuinely thought that getting the positive test result was all I needed to relax and enjoy being pregnant. I couldn't have been more wrong. Today is the day that I would have started my period according the the premom app I have been using and the presence of now brown discharge is giving me the hibigeebees. I'm still convinced that my period is going to start any minute, my back is killing me and every time I relax my nervous system, I have to go to the toilet which triggers it off again. Googling helps to a degree - pink/brown discharge can definitely be implantation... It should theoretically have been a little earlier, but my body has never played by any period cycle rules so I would have been surprised if my period had started today on a normal cycle to be honest. But it is also often what happens before my period starts. I'm starting to feel resigned to the fact that this could be a chemical pregnancy and any minute the flood gates will open and it'll all whoosh away.

Nobody ever tells you about this part of being pregnant. This feeling every day that although you've had the positive test anything can go wrong at any point. I didn't even know chemical pregnancies existed a few days ago and now they're in my mind the whole time. I think the next 24 hours is crucial... Either my period will start or the 'spotting' as its randomly called will stop. Staining would be a more appropriate term. I've had a lot of cramping but not through the night last night, and very mild... Also ties in with what I've read about implantation cramps... But focusing on that can make it feel worse than it is as well and potentially period - related.

Well, there we go... The reality of 14 dpo or whatever we are. I am going to go and immerse myself in a novel until my nervous system calms down, then it can ramp up again next time I have to wee. Sigh. 

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